Nancy Mendez Holland

Nancy loved God, life, and our family. She dreamed of ringing the bell to proclaim she was cancer free as her testimony. But years of cancer and chemo soon revealed the truth. Nancy hid how sick she was to protect me. It turns out Nancy was just as worried about me as I was about her. We rushed to the emergency room as she cried from the stabbing pain, our new normal. But today cancer fated Nancy to comfort care, which is pain meds only. That night I constantly kept waking up to her labored breathing.

About 3:00 AM I woke to silence, my heart fell to the floor. Nancy passed in her sleep peacefully, still holding onto my hand. I cried you are my life, and I'm broken without you.

I'm not ready for goodbye. I kissed her repeatedly saying, I love you, I love you, I love you, as my heart screamed, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you my beautiful wife.